Who is the punching bag?

The big question is, who is the punching bag?

Well, even though I lost a follower, I still feel like someone reads this and obviously you all need some explaining.

I grew up in a very small town. We actually didn’t get our first stop light until I was in high school! So growing up in a small town, with a graduating class of only 112, it was easy to see how I was outcasted so early.

I was born in 1987 to a loud, Italian hairdresser and a quiet, southern realtor. As an only child I grew up with a very active imagination and a constant need for friends and acceptance, no matter where I got it from. The only problem with trying to gain acceptance was the fact that I was short, overweight, and had really bad teeth till I got braces in middle school. You know how your mom always says that kids make fun of you because they’re jealous? It’s not true. They make fun of you because sometimes people really don’t have anything better to do than point out the bad things in others. I admit, I’ve been guilty of it myself.

Throughout my middle school years it didn’t get any better. I dealt a lot with depression and my weight issues. I know everyone now acts like you know depression is some sort of an emo fad with kids talking about slitting their wrist and their teenage angst, but back in the early 2000’s y ou were just a freak if you had any sort of a mental illness. Back then I had no idea how to cope with the tormenting and teasing and it just kind of lead me into a pretty dark place in my life.

Eventually I did spring out of it. I’m going to fully admit that right here and now it was solely because of a boy. I had surgery (deviated septum and tonsillectomy) well that dropped my weight down about forty pounds and then I met someone from another school and we started dating. Girls laid off me as bad when I had a boyfriend and kind of kept to myself and stopped hanging out with people from my own school. It made things a lot easier to be invisible and escape to writing and books.

Of course like every high school relationship that one ended then I gained back a lot more weight. Though once I got to college it was like a whole new chapter in my life. I didn’t worry about being accepted by everyone and eventually did find my place. By my senior year I became the person I am today (well physically) I dropped A TON of weight, started doing my hair and makeup, and all of sudden boys and people wanting to be my friend came out of nowhere! It was weird that once I was comfortable with myself then other people seemed draw towards me.

After college I started working for a major corporation, got engaged, and bought a new car. When I went home to see all those people that used me as their ‘punching bag’ in high school. Well let’s just say they were nowhere near where I had gotten in life. So that’s where the inspiration for this blog came. Fighting back to all those people that made fun of me just by accepting myself for who I am and being proud of what I’ve done so far. I also tend to rant or talk about my writing because let’s face it I have to pimp myself out somehow!

My favorite literary characters

So in honor of my loves..and to kind of mirror a post I did over on Steph Bowe’s blog, I decided to write my top ten favorite literary characters and the reasons as to why I love them.

10) Maggie (In her Shoes)- There are two big things I look for when I read characters, a.) I want them to feel like real people and b.) I want them to really develop and grow into their characters. Maggie is no exception to this. She starts out as just some dumb blonde little sister and fully grows into a remarkable young woman that helps her sister out when she needs it the most.

9.)Bridget (Sisterhood of the traveling pants) – Okay so she’s a little bit my favorite of the characters because I kind of had a girl crush on Blake Lively for a long time, but that’s beside the point. I thought Bridget was the most well rounded character; when she felt sad I really felt sad. I loved hearing her story and think that she could have carried her own book all on her own.

8.) Bubba (The Sookie Stackhouse series) – For all of you who have read the series you know about Bubba aka Elvis. I picked Bubba as one of my favorite literary characters just because Charlaine Harris knows how to work a character! Who would have thought to make Elvis a slow vampire that likes cats? Even his demeanor just makes him so likeable! If you’ve only seen the show you really need to read the book series, if for nothing else to read about Bubba!

7.) Jacob (Twilight) – Now I am not some little Twi-hard or anything or on Team Jacob, but I do think that his character (on and off screen) was the most developed. I really believed in his change from innocent native American boy to troubled werewolf. The only change I saw in Edward was him becoming more of a pansy and with Bella, her becoming more needy. Now you can bash me all you want, but like I said I want characters that really develop and grow, and I think throughout the franchise Jacob was the only one that really did that for me.

6. ) Brittany (Perfect Chemistry) – Can I just say that I absolutely adored this book? I loved the chemistry of the two main characters and how they grew together and as their own people. I chose Brittany over Alex, just because I can relate a little bit more to the female character and I LOVED her back story. If you haven’t read this book yet, it’s not the typical blonde cheerleader meets bad boy, there is a whole other level that is just amazing.

5.) Sumner Lee (That Summer) – I really don’t care that he cheated on the sister; I still don’t believe he did in fact I think Sarah Dessen lies. I love me some southern boys and just the description of his lazy Alabama accent and care free attitude drew me in. He may have not been the most believable character with his thirty million jobs and love of hanging out with fifteen year olds and old people, but I just can’t help it…ladies love country boys.

4.) Holden Caulfield (Catcher and the Rye) – How can I do a list without Holden? One of the most beloved literary characters of all time! When I read this book, I felt like Holden was in modern times I didn’t even think about how long ago this was written. He was such a well developed and real character that I couldn’t put the book down. Bravo high school English class you did good!

3.) Charlie (The perks of being a wallflower) – This has only been a recent read for me, but I couldn’t help but fall in love with Charlie. He may cry more than any other human being, but his awkwardness is more than charming, it’s downright irresistible. There are some very dark moments in this book that you will only understand at the very end, but when you realize it, it will take your breath away.

2.) Jessica Darling (The Jessica Darling series) – If you haven’t read any of these books, GET THEM. I’ve said before that Marcus Flutie and Jessica Darling are my favorite literary couple and I have to stick by that. I love how well Jessica is developed and Megan Mccafferty did an excellent job of creating the female Holden that she longed for. I really wish that Jessica was real so that we could hang out and eat some donut holes while listening to Barry Manilow.

Number one is a tie are you ready for it?


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Number one is…

Libby Gentry and Blaine Crabtree!

Yes, yes I did pick my own characters, but really what’s not to love? They have every essence that I could put into them to make into characters that I would love and I must say that I succeeded. I love the suburban socialite and the Southern boy charm; it makes me happy every time I read my manuscript. Someday they will be in print and everyone may just love them as much as I do…

Random facts

So I haven't posted in awhile and my creative juices are kind of at a stand still...so....here are 12 random facts about me!

1.) I wrote my first short story junior year of high school and it was called "Dead end and boyfriends." Yeah hoping that never surfaces...
2.)I have a rescued American Staffordshire Terrier named Snogs. She eats her own poop sometimes and it's disgusting.
3.) I will be getting married 5-15-2010 and will officially have the same name that I write under.
4.) My future hubby poo and I constructed a wall for a garden today. We are both not built for manual labor and are very sore. (Hubby poo just said he is built for manual labor and I'm wrong).
5.) I smoked cloves when I was in high school/ early college. It wasn't my finest time.
6.) I didn't learn how to ride a bike until I was eight.
7.)I wanted to audition for Glee, but I can't sing or dance.
8.) I only have eight followers and I'm not sure how many of them actually read this...
9.) I have four stories currently on my computer that are partially written, but I just keep getting bored with them.
10.) I am actually debating on deleting this blog once my fiance finally finishes my website.
11.) I may be 22 years old, but I still enjoy watching me some Gossip Girl and reading Twilight.
12.) I believe that every person does truly have potential, but some people just don't choose to live up to it.